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10 December 2010 @ 12:00 am
 
 
"So that's how we live our lives. No matter how deep and fatal the loss, no matter how important the thing that's stolen from us--that's snatched right out of our hands--even if we are left completely changed, with only the outer layer of skin from before, we continue to play out our lives this way, in silence. We draw ever nearer to the end of our allotted span of time, bidding it farewell as it trails off behind. Repeating, often adroitly, the endless deeds of the everyday. Leaving behind a feeling of immeasurable emptiness."
 
 
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Until We Bleed - Kleerup ft Lykke Li
 
 
30 May 2009 @ 12:17 am
-  D&G junior shirt
-  Armani Exchange denim shirt
- 2 CK shirts for dad

and best buys for today's lot would be the Mulberry belt (100% leather, smells damn good!), Alexander McQueen zipper top, and Seven jeans which were originally 469$!!!!!

:D

ok, now to go kick myself in the ass for spending so much again.... and another time for missing out on The Row pants.....

we're going down again tmr, but priority of the day is..... we're going on the flyer!!!!!! ok la, not that exciting actually, but well, haven't gone before, just got to pray it doesn't break down!

in just one more day i'm going to be 19, doesn't feel like it tho
 
 
Current Mood: irritated
 
 
28 May 2009 @ 01:49 am
Butter = Fail
 
 
Current Mood: disappointed
 
 
20 April 2009 @ 01:29 am
19.04.09
she left me in the afternoon, didn't get to see her when she was still okay, didn't get to see her when she was not okay, didn't get to see her during her last moments.
she died in matt's arms, i wished it were mine, but that honour didn't deserve to be mine.
i miss her very much, and damn it i just wish that i could have been there you know? but for my first, i was on the plane on the way back to spore but didn't make it. and this one? i felt it when i was on my way to work, walking past my sister's house. a voice said "you're so close, if you don't see her now, you won't see her again"... but i was running late, i couldn't go. got a miss call from my mom, then a msg saying that they're taking her to the vet's (to be cremated) now, that she has gone to bunny heaven (in my mom's terms, cute..) tears welled up. held it back. still managed to smile to people. still managed to function. still managed to work. but that's the way i am, always have back-up ammunition somewhere somehow to still go on even if every part of me has fallen apart (the past few days had been bad enough)
didn't eat the whole day, couldn't.
today i managed one meal because my gastric was hurting quite bad.

i'm so sorry, but know that you were always more than a pet... my companion in the afternoons when i was a lonely kid who loved nothing more than spending the afternoons napping with her bunny in bed and bringing you around in my PE tshirt pocket and beaming (i still do) when people tell me I look like my pet...

i love you Bitsy, always have, always will. you'll always hold a place in my heart.
 
 
Current Mood: depressed
 
 
13 April 2009 @ 01:52 am
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In a way, I need a change
From this burnout scene
Another time, another town
Another everything
But it's always back to you

Stumble out, in the night
From the pouring rain
Made the block, sat and thought
There's more I need
It's always back to you

But I'm good without ya
Yeah, I'm good without you

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
Give me a break let me make my own pattern
All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
All that I feel is the realness I'm faking
Taking my time but it's time that I'm wasting
Always turn the car around
 
 
Current Mood: determined
 
 
31 March 2009 @ 01:47 am
 
 
 
12 December 2008 @ 12:14 am
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See what I did in the next post... which I made private mwahahah.
Ok fine, actually you can see it through fcbk too.
For all those who went "OMG AMANDA R U NUTZ?!" "AMANDA!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!", er I hope you won't say "i told you so!!!" to me i'll be damn hurt ): the last time I had hair this short was when I was er like what? 6???
 
 
08 December 2008 @ 02:48 am
KBOX that amounted to 300++ (v guilty tho, cuz it's jen's parents' money)
but time spent with friends is priceless :)
I love y'all vvvv much.*sings & sways to PEN YOU YI SHEN YI QI ZOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU*
her parents r absolutely adorable. no wonder their daughter came out like that. :)

so this week officially starts and i'm looking forward to and also dreading thursday very very much...
 
 
Current Mood: loved
 
 
05 December 2008 @ 11:42 pm
KITTYWU PRESENTS... MOGWAI
JAN 23

2009 is going to be a good year :>
 
 
Current Mood: excited
 
 
27 November 2008 @ 03:27 am
 
 
Current Mood: excited
 
 
27 November 2008 @ 01:30 am
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way
that I say that I need you
 
 
Current Mood: pensive
Current Music: dear braden - danny fujikawa
 
 
19 November 2008 @ 03:39 am
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Well I don't feel better
When I'm fucking around
And I don't write better
When I'm stuck in the ground
So don't teach me a lesson
Cause I've already learned
Yeah the sun will be shining
And my children will burn

Oh the heart beats in its cage

I don't want what you want
I don't feel what you feel
See I'm stuck in a city
But I belong in a field

Yeah we got left, left, left, left, left, left, left,
Now it's three in the morning and
You're eating alone

Oh the heart beats in its cage

All our friends they're laughing at us
All of those you loved, you mistrust
Help me, I'm just not quite myself
Look around there's no one else left
I went to the concert and I fought through the crowd
Guess I got too excited when I thought you were around

Oh, he gets left, left, left, left, left, left, left

I'm sorry you were thinking I would steal your fire
Oh the heart beats in its cage
Yes the heart beats in its cage
Alright

And the heart beats in its cage
 

1. I got the job, am v excited to start really... prospects look v good
2. I have been buying too many shoez... was thinking that in my head when at this shoe shop in paragon when I looked up and saw the sentence "when it comes to shoes, it's never enough" staring back at me - felt better, and today i bought 2 more flats (will post up pictures of them + 4" heels + gladiator + boots + 2 v gorgeous heels (heels with zips @ the back r my current obsessions!)
3. OK, so tomorrow I start work, i'm getting butterflies now :(:(
4. I don't know what to wear even though the 'uniform' says black outfits, and I have tons of those
5. I went to places I never thought I would go in a single day - far east, bugis. AND, ALONE. I left bugis as soon as i finished my business there , and refused to shop at far east til jf came, then I went to 3 shops, found what I wanted in the last one, and we quickly left
6. I have xtremely long hair now (LYDIA LIM U BTR NOT POST THE ONES I SENT U WITH ME IN MY ___ PJS TO FCBK!)
7. I miss SHAN, tyvm for accompanying me with your voice this evening :>
8. I heart tingtongpiglet, too
9. I love you too lydz, glad we're talking again, like how we used to :) i swr, i don't have so much to say to people on messenger usually
10. I love jf and her new haircut, she is v v v hot, i still haven't gotten enough of bullying her (her facial reactions r pricelessss)
11. I live for you, she said
 
 
Current Mood: nervous
 
 
17 November 2008 @ 05:21 am
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15 November 2008 @ 01:14 am
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interview tomorrow at 2pm.... surprised, cuz i thought i sounded like a retard over the phone. quite nervous, but very excited - i think the designer has a gr8 gr8 gr8 collection!!!

alright, picspam is in the next post because that will be friends only :>
 
 
Current Mood: tired
 
 
09 November 2008 @ 10:12 am
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Going to wake her up now, and then to another island for breakfast,
+ COLLECTING BLACKBIRD,FLY!!!!!!

Pic Spam l8r!
 
 
Current Mood: restless
 
 
08 November 2008 @ 12:00 am
P.N.  
"I'm the girl who is lost in space, the girl who is disappearing farther and farther into the background. Just like the Cheshire cat, someday I will suddenly leave, but the artificial warmth of my smile, that phony, clownish curve, the kind you see on miserably sad people and villains in Disney movies, will remain behind as an ironic remnant. I am the girl you see in the photograph from some party someplace or some picnic in the park, the one who looks so very vibrant and shimmery, but who is in fact soon going to be gone. When you look at that picture again, I want to assure you, I will no longer be there. I will be erased from history, like a traitor in the Soviet Union. Because with every day that goes by, I feel myself becoming more and more invisible, getting covered over more thickly with darkness, coats and coats of darkness that are going to suffocate me in the sweltering heat of the summer sun I can't even see anymore, even though I can feel it burn."
 
 
Current Mood: tired
 
 
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I'm glad that he won because he is a great man.
I'm upset that he won because he is a great man and i really hope nothing happens to him, or his family.
 
 
05 November 2008 @ 03:34 am

After seeing [info]letskilljoy's post on petatv.com, Shan and I freaked out, saw a lot of other videos, and have decided never to eat KFC again, or chicken... and actually if you continue watching, you wouldn't want to eat turkey, sheep, seal, etc. anymore. And please don't ever support FUR.

Your 2pc, 3pc, 1 bucket of Chicken from KFC might have been peed upon or contain human waste, and on top of that, after watching what those people at the farms did to the chickens - stomp on them, spray paint in their eyes, throw them against each other, tear their heads off... you wouldn't want to continue eating.

While watching the video, I heard the men SPIT, and I thought that's gross, then they actually LAUGHED. And in the video on the website against Tyson, they could actually play music while torturing the chickens. I am v heartbroken. :( Srsly. Why r there people like these not put behind bars or given death sentences yet? I think they r potential serial killers (they just have NOT attempted humans yet because that carries the penalty of going to jail whereas they feel who cares about some dumb sheep or chicken). I cannot imagine being the wife of any of those evil beings, or worse, their children. They r sick, v v sick and I wish PETA can seriously STOP them, hasn't there been enough media coverage plus all the petition plus all the approaching of Congress..... isn't that all enough to put an end to this?

I know it's ridiculous that the whole world turn vegetarian, animals were sort of placed on this earth for us to have food. And since they r already going to be EATEN, at least let them live and die peacefully? No one would want to eat a screaming, kicking, bloody chicken live right? It doesn't matter that they die ANYWAY... it's just inhuman.

I hope I don't get nightmares tonight, I am quite traumatized. I am putting off the entry I had wanted to post earlier, to tomorrow. :(

 
 
Current Mood: angry
 
 
 
 

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